Boring

Never have such experience before even at SCB...... no task.. no production & no talk with boss at all nearly a month..... It's good but not really at all....  very mo liu !! reading and doing homework instead .....

 Times goes so fast, next month will be one year for me in CCB.... overview, gain not much and seems have to waste the times v_v !?!?  Less laughing... less sharing...  less good memory....  less friendship ....   will think carefully and make a decision of my future after the examination, the worst will be resigned to find other job .... well any way..  take a good relax in coming 2 weeks time annual leave on Aug 7-18 ... & good luck for myself then !

Unreasonable
Mood:  sad
Topic: What's wrong?
Does boss always being unreasonable? during these 2 weeks, i hadn't talked with my boss face to face. no matter what relationship we are, do respect each others, right? i never had such experience before, the boss come to your desk and point out your mistake and not listen your explanation. though fianlly it's the false of his overlooked, still being wrong of me even given up one week sick leave as a result. My hands again, will arrange an operation in coming weeks, not yet confirm the date - ngg.. may be 20th.. anyway i will take a good time to relax

Disappointed
Mood:  sad
Given a hello to "Phooh Phooh" few days ago and suggested to have a chat at her available (i.t. that's the second time). No feedback and silent from her make me feeling so sad. And don't understand what's being happen and what's wrong? Remembered that we had chat before to share our feelings, experience and so... treating her as my friend than a boss. But ... ???? If losing friends in return for my leaving, it's not fair to me.

We may leave with some good memories (and by the way forget about the bad ones) but will friends always stay despite I now work for a different organization. Don't know ? Just a few for me..

Enjoyable
Mood:  bright
Topic: Encouragement
Time really passes so fast, it's five months that I'm at CCB. During past three months, I truely gained a lots that I had missed before. I think I fall in love of my job and enjoy the learning life in here. Of course, strike the balance with my family life is another great challenge for me. If God can give me more time in a day then it's great..my dream is crazy. How to plan and work more efficient are the most important, right! Let me do it and starting now. Kung Hey Fat Choy! Enjoy your holiday and me too.. but the examin is coming on Feb-11

A New Year
Mood:  happy
Topic: Objective in 2006
Setting objective at beginning year is mostly my habit. In 2006, firstly is be happy then we will enjoy our life; 2nd - balance my daily time and try to complete the degree by 2007; 3rd - enrich my knowledge and skill in credit risk; the last but not the least is do everything possible on my part to live in peace with everybody.

Year 2005 not only be my difficult, sad or lucky year, according to my leave from SCB, a very deep feeling in who is my "real" friends. Counting.. it's surprised that it's not much even though we had laugh, sharing and enjoyable time. There's always no feedback on my contact.. Why?.. what's wrong? I cannot find the answer.. sometimes really feel hurt..

Any way, no matter what the result is, I have no regret at all since I had already done my best! Right - my friend.

God with me !
Mood:  happy
Topic: Memories
Amazing and proven my mission from God again that "Nothing is impossible". Last time I felt very sad and pray to God what should I prefer to... Not actually heard from God but don't know why I sent an email to tutor of my decision in given up the course. Out of my expectation that I received a reply from my tutor very soon. According to his encouragemet and movitation, I applied an extra extension from CC. Finally, I completed the TMA and had the result early than others with high mark. It clearly shown me that God is hearing me anywhere and anytime. He really loves us very much and never let us be hurt. Though we never know God's plan to us, he will show us at the right time and the right place. The long way on board in CCB was another proven from God to bring me to the right place at the right time. He not only let me to meet my old friend but a good guide (my boss)Gary. He teaches me lots of thing both in work place and personal life. I learn from him that we should always "know our unknown ’m•s’m".. share with you & Merry Christmas and enjoy the days. God bless you and your family.

Strike the Balance
Mood:  sad
We are facing lots of uncertain and unknown things, it's really difficult to strike our daily life in balance. I always try the best to do all my things in the right way and in the right time. However, I only have one brain and two hands and there's only 24 hours in a day. Even I fully utilize the whole day time, I still cannot strike the balance in my work place, family and my study. Yesterday, I was very sad as couldn't complete the assignment by the due date as a result in losing the chance of examin. Totally lost in money and the spent time. My weakneess is too focus in the work place rather than others. I sat on the bed and looked at my sleepy son with tears. I asked myself in heart; how & what I perfer to ... good performance in work, good mother in family and a degree, both are my objective to be.. however, what's my purpose from God? I pray and looking forward to hearing from him...

Change is never ended
Mood:  lucky
Someone may not like and afraid of any changing. Whenever you think it's stable but it's not at all. I think I'm not such kind of people. Roger and I always face many unexpected changing both our family and working life. We believe when we move one more step we get more instead.
'Your current job prospect in SCB is normal, not critical, a new place is possible added opportunity. Staying in SCB may also have changes and uncertain. Hidden changes are also on our agenda which is unknown to us. New life bring you new insight, new friends and new mission. The most important is to know what will be the most important essence in your future life and you have to structure for it.' - that's what my boss told me before making the decision to leave SCB. It's totally corrected that there's too many constraint that I cannot change in SCB and my knowledge even though with so many many years, is just a very small part. Lucky for me that most of the boss in my working life are willing to lead me with patient. I really gain lots of knowledge and experience from them. I follow my heart to thank.. Benson, Dr Chan, Winnie and Gary..

Journal
I think the "honey moon" in the new place is nearly over la...starting busy now, not in mask production, thinging..searching..writing..& consolidation are most my daily main task in stead. Though it's a long long journal to have the result, I believe that I can over come it. Because the difficult and hard feeling journal in previous months was already a good lesson to me. Currently, spritual support and the encouragment are the most important for me. As we are still working in a small group, sometimes really feel working lonely. Kind to let you know, the journal is not smooth, my boss alreay gave me lots of "cool water" in my assignment though it was completed finally. And many things are totally different from previous, I become a new learner at all. Hence, anyone can offer his big hands is much appreciated. Thanks in advance.... goodnight !! Oct-6, 9:35p.m.

Public Holiday
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Relax
Today is National Day but seems not so specially for the Chinese in HK, just a public holiday. It's also normal for me.. prepare the matrix of TU setting.. reading & doing homework.. Heidi is always busy in homework after the secondary school.. it's pleasure for me that she can manage by herself.. Himmy is still a little boy, sometimes need to play with him.. an everyday learning schedule will start in Oct for him.. Moday to Friday for school, Tuesday afternoon for Kumon, Saturday morning for extra-curricular activities of Puto Hua & English Music, Sunday for drawing.. ha ha busy for him but he enjoys.. that's good.. right !